Life seems to have taken a turn toward carelessness and joy in the last five days.
I seem to be smiling more than ever than in a long time I could remember.
I feel more like living than, wondering why.
Everyone seems good and cool. Rediscovered friendships and have a better grip on life.
So, what happened over the weekend?
I loved her for so long and told her so, last Sunday.
Then, almost instantaneously, I knew, it was a confession worth it.
Now, I cant think why I thought shed turn away.
She walked into my arms so gracefully, I wished I had told her the first time I saw her
Now, I dont care about my career crisis anymore,
I dont wish I earned more,
I feel too rich than ever or anyone,
I seem to have forgiven my family's misgivings, for she wanted to have my family with us.
Its valentines tomorrow, and I havent given a serious thot about a gift for her,
And, strangely feel its alright. And I beleive so, I have hardly seen her impressed by gifts,
she goes to great pains to donne it all the time, I wish I hadnt given her the gift
And should I mention my 'dear' girlfriend, who stopped calling me after I told her this?
Or my other lovable peer, who gives me strength, by looking into my eyes and asking if I have the courage to face it....
Should I mention my change of attitudes,
Should I mention my sudden disapperance of anger,
Should I mention my sudden 'feel good' by donating blood,
Should I mention that suddenly, I dont feel so much myself anymore...
whatever has happened over the last one week, makes me think, I should stop retrospecting life, judging people, fret and worry about the future.
Just to take what comes naturally, and have a no feeler for either the joy or sorrow.
However, some thing dont just go away by wishful thinkin, like dreaming about her lovely face all day and night.